People with hyperfixations spur things into motion. They become media sensations because their passions become magnetic for people craving someone passionate about something when the world is full of those that couldn't care less about what they're shilling and the ramifications that come from it
It's people with hyperfixations that have an interest in something so strong that they're pushed to do something no one's done before, and push it to its limits

Oh how I envy their passion.

Every time it happens, it grates on me a little more
Some youtuber reading a word incorrectly, not clocking that they didn't say the right word, and then carrying on as if the word they said was what was written, with enough confidence that they got it right when the correct words change the whole feeling of a note
Each and every single one of these words was written with intention, and it always gets under my skin when the intentions of a developer aren't felt, because what do you mean?...

Why bother?
I have to try. For the chance that it will matter.

Saw a Youtube short that really resonated with me. I don't subscribe to the jaded beliefs of others, I want to believe the best of any situation, even when I know it might bite me in the back someday. I don't understand what a person has to go through in order to think that way, to not even consider the idea that a well intentioned compliment or money for the poor will result in something better. It's such a defeatist, finalist mindset....

If I could remove one bodily need and had to choose between hunger and sleep, it's not even an choice, it's gotta be sleep

Yeah food costs money, but the lack of sleep is causing me tension headaches and it's very annoying to have to work around

I did not wake up gasping for air, clutching my chest, but that was quite possibly one of the most disturbing dreams I've had. It's disturbing because this is something someone could be doing to someone else, and even more disturbing that I was capable of imagining it

It was night.

For one reason or another, I was in some kind of vehicle, and I had something I knew was valuable in the back of it. The vehicle was parked directly outside a home, presumably a home I live in. I was having a nap, covered by...

1. Feel the need to act with integrity

2. Understand what expectations need to be upheld

3. Say you're going to do the thing that needs to be done, and do it quickly where someone can hear you

4. Now you have to do what you just said, otherwise you'll have lied, and that's not a demonstration of integrity

I had some interesting dreams last night
One where I was a little kid again (or so it seemed). It was as if all the noise inside my head just went away and I acted on what I saw and nothing else mattered. I only remember bits and pieces
The next one was about survival during a time when some virus or disease was running rampant. It wasn't the gritty kind of survival however, it was a space where your survival depended on you following certain rules or procedures. Even then, I'm not sure I'm explaining...

I listen to sad songs sometimes and read the comments underneath
You listen to a song enough and you forget its impact, but when you see everyone sharing their stories, it provides a different perspective and makes the song as sharp as it was when you found it
Habituation is a cruel thing, to lose what made something special about an activity because you've done it to the point of running it into the dirt. To have to rely on the misery of others to be able to see the beauty of songs I held close. It's...

I recognize there's nothing I could be doing right now that will make how I'm feeling go away
Not mentally, physically, my body is tired and it's making whatever I'm doing hard to enjoy
I sleep because it feels good, but it only feels good because it's necessary, and when I go long enough without something that's necessary, getting that necessary thing feels good
Why design a creature that could potentially develop a positive feedback loop involving sleep deprivation?
This started as me saying I...

And as the sun began to set, its colors set my blood ablaze

It's insistence on acting as if nothing out of norm went on today

But I remember you were here with me

I wanted to try my hand at writing some translyrics for a song I love
"Condolences and life goes on," written by 卯花ロク

I'M LEARNING HOW TO SOLDER
FOR NAUGHTY PURPOSES.
I want to make a NoGasm for one of my pets
I've already watched two videos and understand what it is I'm supposed to be doing, but I have no practical experience
Tips greatly appreciated

Guess who was a very brave boy today and dealt with a migraine
It sucked.

I GOT A PROJECT I NEED HELP WITH
It's NSFW, but involves a website, server, websockets I think, some real technical stuff and I don't know where else to turn. I vibecoded the shite out of the HTML page I wanna use, I'll be real, because I didn't wanna burden anyone with my filth, but now comes the almost purely technical part and I feel brave enough to ask for help with that
You will be paid
Not a lot, I'm kinda broke, but it's not nothing
Send me a C-Mail if you're interested

At some point, I've forgotten why I like the music I listen to
My music taste is so diverse, only because of the messages behind these songs
With time, ear candy was all they became... until I started listening more closely again
And it's like I'm meeting myself again.

It feels like I'm constantly waiting for the world to pull the sickest joke on me and tell me I'm actually not a good singer. A few people I don't know, sure, I can believe I'm decent. Almost everyone? You're fricking with me.
I know it's illogical too because I have over a decade in choir classes, I take recordings every day of the snippets of songs I like the most that day, obsess over getting them up to my standards, I know I'm a good (not great) singer. But I'm still waiting on that...

I've been severely lacking in mental stimulation lately
Yeah I can pay the bills, pay for groceries, whatever, I'M BORED.
I want an AYN THOR. Let me play the games of my childhood
I want a FLIP PHONE

I want someone to do for me what I would do for them
I want for someone to know me, for someone to see me as I am and accept me, not for who I pretend to be
I want for someone to hear the music I listen to and know all the things I feel inside, because just like the music I listen to, I require that you look a little longer. Stick around, notice the little things you didn't before that justify other parts of me. And then you will see that I'm more than the sum of these parts

... Did I
Did I eat too much garlic Tabasco???
Not sure what I could've eaten that'd have my intestines so fucky wucky

YOU KNOW WHAT.
I WAS RIGHT.
I wouldn't be able to handle Adventure Time. I just stumbled into Finn meeting his MOM. Like his actual, genetic MOTHER. I learned that magic stems from madness, sadness and hate, and that makes me question every silly, funny little thing that's happened. How sane every creature that can use magic really is. Finn built a TOWER to try and reach his dad so he can RIP OFF HIS ARM.

If I ever decide to go through with watching the show, following every other show and its...

It's always bittersweet when I see a meme involving a dog or cat and I know they've left us. It's bitter, yes, but how grateful I am that you were here for this short time to delight us with your whimsy.

Thurston, Gabe, Grumpy Cat, and all the others, you were loved by so many.