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It doesn't look like I'm sleeping tonight
I thought it would stop after a bit, that all the bugs in our home were because the home has only recently finished being built, and that whatever was here before was still in here, it just needs to die
But I'm pretty sure bugs are getting in somehow. I see ants in the bathroom, and I've avoided looking too close in my bedroom for my sanity, but the moment I check, I see ants along the bottoms of my walls near the door of the room
I don't think I can sleep...

I was thinking about it actually
The internet has gotten too connected
There used to be mystery when it came to games, and information was spread by word of mouth
A game that has a secret ending no longer has a secret ending, it has an alternate ending with a bit of work
As silly as it was, I believed Waluigi existed in Super Mario 64 DS
I really did. Because the thought that somehow, someone hasn't discovered something yet was so intriguing, that any "footage" of the event felt as if it came...

Little bit of an NSFW post

I find myself feeling the draw towards single player games, because they allow me to pause at a moments notice to divert my attention somewhere else, like one of my pets who might need me for some fun~

Every time one of them messages me and I'm playing a game like Peak, I have to make the decision to either continue the game with those I was already playing with, or push them aside to focus on the one who messaged me, and that kinda blows

I'm really looking forward to when I...

I had my dream last night, and it was one of the only times I recognized that I was dreaming

When I realized, I rushed to find a poster on the wall so I could verify I couldn't make sense of what it was saying. I couldn't, it looked alien, like it was trying to be readable and failing

It was honestly horrifying, and then I realized the fear from that moment didn't wake me up. It was only after doing something after that I did, and I was relieved that it was over

I'm laying down in my bed at the duplex for the first time, and... well it's different

I'm really looking forward to getting my desk and chair in here so I can start plugging in all my stuff

In other news, I've committed the deadly sin gluttony because of that food I ate earlier
I wanted so badly to keep the experience of eating the food from degrading, that I just ate whenever I felt I had space to put it. It was incredible food, but I'm gonna need to order something else next time x3

This Mediterranean food place, Pasha Mediterranean, JESUS
It damn near beat the autism out of me, I didn't even CARE that the skin was left on the potatoes, it tasted so good I could not give a shit what it had on there

The texture?
Great
The garlic sauce?
Great
The rice?
Great
The hummus?
You fucking know it's great

You can run from your demons

until you are exhausted

One day you will have to stop and find out what they wanted

You can

run from your demons, until you are exhausted...

Live your life in a way that won't leave demons running after you

So there's a streamer who's a piece of bread
Naturally, I have to follow this line of thought to its conclusion, I mean there's no other choice, it happened and now you're gonna hear about it
A group of friends that stream and are each individual part of a sandwich
Or some kind of multilayered food, like a hamburger, there's buns, lettuce, tomatoes, cheese, etc
If this already exists, no it didn't, I invented it first, uhh get wrecked? :p /j

SO.

I live in the US. Our portion sizes are big as shit. I have celiac disease. And I have a cinnamon bun.

I brought the whole thing up here (it's probably not even that big) but I'm gonna really wish I hadn't eaten as much as I did when I'm on the pot later. I can't take it back, everyone else is trying to sleep, and I don't want to waste this D:

I don't know if this is allowed, but hopefully it is
One of my friends has a friend who needs help, he lives in Arizona and because of the job market there, he can't find work
Even if it's something small, please contribute, or you can help by sharing
I can't donate anything myself at the moment, which is why I'm doing what I can by sharing it here
https://gofund.me/bd669b919

GUESS WHO GOT MORE SPAGHETTI SAUCE AND NOODLES

Salmon and rice for dinner
Garlic and onion powder with Tabasco
Little brush to slather it all on there

Good meal

I was listening to Harvey from Her's today, and scrolled through the comments

"Death has excellent taste in music"
And I had to walk away for a bit
It's so god damn unfair, for a comment to put into words what I felt while simultaneously feeling as if I've been mocked. Because death does have excellent taste in music. Why else would all these wonderful and talented artists who created out of love be taken? And sometimes I find it hard to believe that's not the case

I didn't think packing to move would be this emotionally intensive
I think I've been denying the reality that I'd have to start at time point, and now that I've started, I can't deny it anymore

It hurts. It hurts a lot. We won't even be that far away, we're in the same neighborhood, literally within walking distance, but the years I've spent in this room, they won't be here anymore. This room is quite literally on borrowed time, it doesn't feel like the space I'm in belongs to me anymore. I wonder how...

Dreams are made up of our individual experiences. What we've felt, what we've seen, what we've touched. And I do not have many.

So I need to find more. See more of the world, feel more things, so that my dreams can be as flavorful as I know myself to be. Or at least, I can recognize the potential within myself to be.

My Granny bought two cheese enchiladas from Taco Cabana
I ate it

I also made cheese fries with the spicy fries from HEB
I ate it

Ate too much
My stomach ert
Uncomfy :(

I TOOK A SHOWER!!1!11!

YIPPEE :D

Tagged as NSFW for a reason

I'm a findom, I have my specific niche. Tonight would have me acting outside that niche. I do have an interest in whatever lays ahead of me, but it could mark the difference between secure income for the foreseeable future

The ideal situation is I have a real job and findom acts as a side gig, but that's not possible for me right now. Banking my future on something like this has me feeling anxious enough that it will most certainly impact how well I do

Ahhhh
Starting out...

I was doing my usual thing, sitting at my desk with my computer, and I noticed something funny with my eyes

It was like there was a blind spot that wasn't supposed to be there. Then a part of my vision became wavy. There was a sharp semicircle, I could clearly trace where it was if I could overlay my vision onto paper, and it was making everything along that line fuzzy

Shortly after, I had a migraine
This is the first time I accurately felt like something not good would come after. I've had times...

Hot take, "friendslop" games are the board games of the modern age
We buy them to play with our friends, and when we've had our fun, they sit on the "shelf" for a while until we decide to play them again
They're a reason to bring friends together

Thinking about how it all was back then, while I was wishing for that future frutiger aero showed me, these thoughts came to me
One day we will look back and remember these games fondly. I already think of them as board games, and people don't consider...